Frost Bite

It took me a year to reconcile the fact that my best friend of thirty plus years never cared for me as a Human being.  Fact, she was in love with me. Whatever part that I was, that she wasn’t. She hated me. She was jealous of me. She thought I was a follower. She thought I was simple. She thought she had an unbreakable hold on me. She wanted me to go without. Everything. She wanted me to suffer. She wanted me to beg to come back. Do you see me begging? I ran. Left that demon with her pants around her ankles. As she left me, our whole friendship. 

I deleted her from my life. I don’t even have her number. I don’t know her address. I don’t watch her on social media. She matters as much to me now as I did to her for thirty plus years. 

I hope she gets help. She won’t. But she needs it. She wears a mask to the world. She’s an alcoholic. A drug addict. A sexual deviant. What she did to me is unforgivable. But she will never be a part of my life. 

God, I call back my energy from all people, places & things. Whether given willingly. Or taken by force. I do not allow HER or any of her family & friends into my energy or space. Thank you.